Hey! I’m Alia. Just a girl in the wrong end of her 20s, trying to get through this life with as much happiness and positivity as I can. I’m a photographer by trade, with a hobby for writing, but why am I writing this blog? Well, we all have our stories and a large part of mine consists of anxiously wondering through life. I’ve been a shy and anxious person for as long as I can remember, and despite having a pretty good life really, despite a few ups and downs, it hasn’t seemed to have left me yet. In fact, it got worse.
Last year was pretty tough. I had a lot of stress in my personal and work life, and it just got a little bit too much towards the end. I was running myself into the ground for the first 7 months of the year, working 6 days a week for 2 part time jobs (and had been doing so since August the previous year), along with going through a house purchase (and believe me, that is stressful), a house renovation (even more stressful) and in the mean time living out of a suitcase between my parents and my boyfriends’ parents house, and finally changing jobs in August and moving into our new house in October. A lot to handle, right? Certainly a lot for someone who gets anxious about almost everything… Come November/December time, my anxiety spiralled. I’m socially anxious anyway, so the thought of Christmas parties and social activities with people I don’t know that well was daunting to say the least, and on top of that work was really busy for those couple of months so I was tired. It was overwhelming. After Christmas, something then happened which made me realise that my anxiety had got to the point where it was going to ruin my relationship if I didn’t do something about it, and that’s what led me to where I am now, currently undergoing Cognitive Behavioural Therapy.
So, the reason I’ve wanted to do this blog is because I’m not only using it as a type of therapy in itself, but I want to share my experiences with the prospect of helping other people if I can. Sharing things that have helped me, or haven’t, and showing you that you’re not alone in this. Now, I know there’s a lot of mental health blogs, and even more lifestyle ones, and I’m not saying I’m anyone special, because I’m not, but I intend to be as real as I can be on here. Mental health awareness has grown exponentially over the past couple of years which is great, but there’s still a bit of a stigma towards it and people are still uncomfortable talking about it, but we shouldn’t be! There’s no shame in being anxious or depressed, but it’s also no life to live. Despite its problems, we live in a wonderful world and we should be enjoying as much as we can of it. So let’s start living in the rain, and appreciating the beauty of life.
P.s. If you’re wondering about the title of this blog, it comes from a lyric of a song I used to listen to, called Sunshine, by Kids In Glass Houses (no longer together, RIP) of which goes “Stop wishing for the sunshine, and start living in the rain.” It stuck in my head, and I kept thinking about what a great notion that is. We often wish for the sunshine on a dreary, rainy day, but we should be making the most of it anyway. Who says you can’t be happy and have fun in the rain? So I look forward to going on this journey, hopefully with you.
Over and out. x